kill me painfully

i am feeling awesomely amazed at how our teachers and the people who are in the 'administration' are sooooo sadist that they want to kill batch after batch of students. they kill us in a slow way. painful way. excruciatingly slow death will be ours or in my case has been mine. yes i am dead. it is just my outer cover that still works, i am dead inside. all cold inside. i do not feel any love, nor happiness, nor joy, nor sorrow, i am hollow and i am dead. no one hear will be able to escape this death, no one will be spared. some are dead already like me or a few others i guess. i no longer care about the fact that i need to study X because there is an exam on X tomorrow. if i want to study Y then i will irrespective of the fact that i have an exam on X tomorrow. i am bored by the abundance in which monotony is there in my life. no surprises(not that i like them), no fun no joy only the dull monotony of daily life. i hate them all. i hate all these intellectuals who pretemd to know it all as if they were born with all the knowledge stuffed into them. no right they were also taught by someone. But did their teaches also treat them in the same manner killing them too daily, is this how they now want to teach us in the same manner ??? if so then where did this vicious circle start from ? did it start from a particular teacher wjo taught all her/his students in this manner and then those students taught their students in the same manner and so on and so forth ??? I blame the britishers why i dont know maybe cause they were treated as the rot cause of all the problems in our country till recently the burden shifted to manmohan singh. poor man has to manage his wife and sonia mam and god knows how many deities. well may the sadistic part of our teachers soon leave them and may they let us live and dream and study what and as we like and do what we want to do. have mercy on us have some mercy. even people being hanged are givena last wish. AAAAHHHH quick want my last wish and i want it now