MANIFESTATION

There is this Mongolian creation myth which says about a wild dog and his mate roe deer. Hunter and hunted meet and fell in love with each other. According to laws of nature, one should destroy the other, but in love there is neither good nor evil, there is neither construction nor destruction, there is merely movement. And love changes the law of nature. And I completely believe in the theory of Mongolian. It doesn’t seem to me like a myth. It would be right to infer that this theory says out of different natures love is born. In contradiction, love grows in strength. In confrontation and transformation, love is preserved.
My personal experience, though it hard to believe and accept, but yes the day you or me, anyone of us, allows true love to appear, those things which are well made will fall into confusion and will overturn everything we believe to be right and wrong. The world can become real only when learns how to love; until then we will live in the belief that we know what love is, but we always lack the courage and guts to confront it as truly it is:
Now after falling in love with a person who expects me to understand each and everything what goes on in his mind and he is never ready to understand what I may need or what I expect from me, he tries hard to drive me to the limit that utter what is going in my mind and I make a demand to him and then he can again have a choice what to do what not do. There can be several reasons behind this what I could understand is that he is fascist and secondly, he doesn’t want to understand what is going in my mind because understanding business in his small brain would start a compelling him to do what he understood and what he thought about me.
So let’s come back to discussion of understanding of love, what I have interpreted after falling in love with someone who means everything to me in my life and future or say what my reasoning is that love is untamed force. When we try to control it, it destroys us. When we try to imprison it, it enslaves us. When we try to understand it, it leaves us feeling lost and confused. Still after this interpretation in my mind I don’t have a positive definition of what love is???
I will tell an instance, when me and harshul walk together , I don’t how good we look together, because I do not match up to his standards of smartness but when we are together , when people come to know about us , they say (it has been more than 300 times till date) you both are like Zigzag , you both fit into each other like you are made for each other, you both complete each other. I don’t know is this love which attracts this kind of comments to us or what???
Our world is surrounded by layer of love , there will be atleast 100 people loving you but what we do search for the thickest layer of love , the moment we get that cushion we like keep bouncing on it back on forth, and I found that in harshul, his care , his love and I don’t know some unexplainable characteristics of his which kept on attracting me and still attracts me towards him , but I don’t about him ???
I believe we can harness the energy of winds, the seas, the sun as we do nowadays. But the day we learns to harness the energy of love , that will be as important as discovery of fire. May be after all my efforts I have proved to be incompetent and make him feel loved to the extent I feel for him , I m hoping that he questions this to his soul and heart because these are the two who makes him say that aparna I love you !
I would like to close the discussion because after this much off turmoil in my small heart n brain I m not capable of defining love. It ‘s my request to all those who say that they are in love or they love someone ,to ask this question to themselves , and when they get an answer , they should enlighten me also.


WITH LOTS OF LOVE TO YOU BABU !!!